You Are Not Alone

It’s been 23 years, and I’m still looking for you.
 
It’s been 23 years, and I’ve lived a completely different life as a mom without a mom.
 
It’s been 23 years of me searching for ways to “find you” through the tiniest little things.
 
Hummingbirds, lady bugs, springs new flowers, songs on the radio, and funny stories and photos.
 
Greif.
 
Years of searching for parts of me that are empty.
 
I’ve become a seeker. Sometimes my brain keeps asking questions, so I look for the answers.
 
Trying to understand why this was my path.
 
And on my journey, as I heal my little kid, and trust myself, something beautiful has unfolded over the last two decades later.
 
Those empty places are still there but the edges around them have transformed into beautiful flower gardens. Lush with greenery and color.
 
So, when I feel the deep pain, its surrounded by beauty.
 
Beauty that you taught me, mom.
 
How hard it was to stick to that “flower budget” in May! We need more flowers!
 
Well, mom, I’m still “blowing” the flower budget. It’s my Christmas! 
 
Thank you for teaching me the importance of color and new life each spring.
 
 
“You are not alone.
I am here with you.
Though were far apart.
Your always in my heart”
 
Oil on board, 8x8, framed and ready to hang.
Music reference, You Are Not Alone, Michael Jackson
 
Oil on board, 8 x 8, in a black floater fram, wired and ready to hang.
 
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